Writing is one of the ways I find out what I think. It sits somewhere between record, experiment and encounter: a place for following connections between research, lived experience, making, growing and whatever else refuses to stay in its assigned category, very much like I do.
Much of what is here begins before I know what it is for. A sensation, an image, a question, something noticed at the allotment or in the middle of research. I write to stay with these first marks for long enough to see what they might become. Some develop into research or more deliberate work; others remain fragments of life as it is being lived.
This is where I leave some of those trails visible.
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That seldom felt thrill…
Sitting down, eating my dinner this evening, I experienced a frisson of excitement. I realised that it was Tuesday and so was a Great British Bake Off evening. Running to take my plate downstairs, I also realised…
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#Derbywalks
#Derbywalks was how I used to regulate and calm the emotional turmoil when my son was very young. Walking, at night, was the only time I had to myself – often when I couldn’t sleep anyway. The…
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From No-Dig to No-Dogma: Rethinking My Allotment After Long Covid
I have been diagnosed with Long Covid this year, so I’m learning to contend with POTS, chronic fatigue and other symptoms. Being out in the heat this summer wasn’t really an option for me. Now I am…
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Writing around research, digital life, autism, selfhood, data, methodology and the process
of doing a PhD.
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Writing about the garden, allotment, food growing, permaculture and relationships with the more-than-human world.
Life
Personal and reflective writing: lived experience, culture, neurodivergence and things that don’t belong anywhere tidier.
From the archive
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A light just left the world (written in May 2018)
I found out this afternoon that my ex-partner of three years, Ian, died unexpectedly in his home 2 days ago. I lived with Ian for three years in my early twenties and our dating caused a bit of a scandal as he was 23 years older…