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First Marks
Making space for emergence means keeping watch for what you might encounter in what is left behind. You remove things, pass them over, discard or rearrange them. New configurations take time to become used to. Like new shoes, they can be uncomfortable at first. I have found that being aware of what might be changing,…
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July 2026 in photos
Feeling lost and uncertain whilst trying to love these things Working on redesigning my blog/personal site into something new. Looking back over my old posts makes me sad. I got Long Covid in 2020. I only got a diagnosis in 2026, February to be exact. Comparing how much I used to go out, how much…
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Allotment Autoethnographic Reflections
Murakami works as a writer because he captures in prose those fleeting things that place you at the scene. Suddenly the tantalising smell of grilling cheese in the air. I stop and inhale, the scent displacing me to winter afternoons making cheese on toast. I breathe and realise I am hungry. The polytunnel smells faintly…
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Spring excitement, warmth and old friends
Today was a wonderful time, for the first warmth in the sun that peeped out from behind the clouds. The angle of the light is gaining height meaning that the days will soon be longer. There is a promise of spring, in the air, in the soil and in the beautiful colours of tiny dandelions…
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The Landscape of Theoretical Possibilities of Everything
When I was discharged from my section 3 and subsequently left hospital I described what had happened during those 10 weeks as the start of a journey. I didn’t know what the destination would be. I didn’t realise then how unpredictable and demanding the travel would be too. I describe this post at the theoretical…
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Allotment update – Winter 2026
Returning to my growing space after three months in hospital was difficult. Much of the work I completed during the three months before my admission had gone to waste. I had not been able to harvest my beans or my squashes and pumpkins. The winter crops I had grown to see me through the hungry…
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YouTube Music Recap – September to November 2025, otherwise entitled “Remembering hospital and not wanting to live”.
I listen to a lot of music. It helps me process my emotions, recognise my emotional state in the moment and regulate my sensory system. This latter aspect was highlighted in the sensory profile that was created within my inpatient care plan; that I use music, in surprising ways, within the context of my sensory…
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Purposeful/less writing – or why this?
I started blogging in 2009 I think and continued on a different blog for another four years using a wordpress hosted platform. Back then, Facebook had only reached the masses for about eighteen months, maybe two years. Social media was a novelty, an unexploited paradise of consumption and audience participation that promised new and exciting…
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January 2026… a beginning and not sure where to start.
Being sectioned, again, was an experience I don’t really know how to talk about yet. I’ve had many inpatient admissions in the last six years and a reasonable number of section detentions. You think you know how they are going to go. Consider yourself an old hand. Then something appears unexpectedly, and sideswipes whatever stability…